I Can Be in Love with a Vampire, but...

Have you seen the movie Twilight? Imagine a 17 years old girl falling in love with a vampire, I know some of you will think like “what is this crab" and some others will think "Love is blind so any thing regarding love could happen". After all, it is just a movie, so the director and the story writer are free to do what they want. The issue is that when I saw the movie and put my self in the shoes of belle (the heroine), I felt that I won't help falling in love with the vampire young man. Imagine if you have some one who is always there for you, to protect you, to care for you, and even to watch you sleeping. Whenever you call for him he will be right infront of you, whatever you want or need he will get for you, and above all, he puts you first before him self in every step he takes and every decision he makes. He resists the most things he ever wanted in his whole life and fights him self to stay in control all the time for your own sake. Won't you be in love with such a man? Even though he is a vampire? Especially when you know that he does not kill humans, because he avoids being a monster and that deep inside of him he is very kind! When you love someone you take him/her as a package, with his bright and dark sides, with his good and bad deeds. And by this you are not blinded, you are totally aware of your beloved's characteristics, and you know how to deal with his/her faults and flaws. And here comes the catastrophe, I can imagine my self falling in love with a kind vampire, but I can’t be in love with any ordinary man. Why is it that complicated? I am fully aware of the necessity to make compromises and that no body is perfect, then what? High expectations?, strict demands?, or being scared?!!! I guess every person has a key to his/her heart, is my key lost? I just want a man who can love me truly and unconditionally. A man who makes me win over his selfishness, a man who I can trust and rely on. Someone who can understand how I think and feel and who can deal with those thoughts and feelings. Someone who can make me want to stop resisting him, and even make it easy for me. Do you think such a man exists? Or it is enough to dream of the vampire young man!

You are losing me

You are losing me.
You are losing the glance I used to see you with.
You are missing the way I used to feel for you.
The feeling of love that I never thought I will show for any one.
The feeling of care that always relieve you and make you feel safe.
You are missing the heart which kept him self only for you.
You are losing the mind who always believed in you.
You are losing the person who never doubt your being the only one for her.
You are losing me......
Would you please go back to the way you were, cause I don't want to go through losing you.

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I can't remember the last time I ever felt like this, this being “unable to describe what I feel, feeling that it is too much to be put in words”. All I can say…Let me start with this scene, Me infront of the Nile before Semeramis, at my favorite spot to have a "floka", the weather is incredible, a little bit cold, just like it was always in my dreams. It is almost sunset, and the sky looks beautiful every thing was perfect, and what made it even better than my dream is that it is for real, and above all, he was there, just the way I wanted him to be, very close but,.....
Here comes the shock, I am stunned, fixed in my place, looking around and can’t make the step, can’t treat the surroundings as if they were,… as if they are real,…can’t treat the surroundings as the fact that they are real. I started crying, I did not know what stopped me from having something that I want. After waiting all these years to have this scene about to be complete, I did not share in the final act, and actually stopped the movie for no reasonable reason. I have no idea what went wrong. Am I scared to have what I want? What am I waiting for?